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When It Counts

I've been thinking about this for awhile and reflecting on this year. You really know who cares about you when your life is down in the shit hole or when you're going through a difficult phase in your life. People who stick around just for kicks and fun are out just when you really need them. I'm glad that everything that happened to me did because it made me realize who's in it for the long run and has unconditional love for me as a person. I love my friends and family. And you came even when I didn't deserve it because you still care and always have. Everyone else... fuck you very much! Just kidding. But really... I don't deserve all this love. At all. But I don't want to get into that whole phase again so I'll just try to be a better person from now on because that's the least I could do. And that's my 143 starry night angel xoxoxo yammy bffz4life giggles :):):) entry.

I really did and it was great while it lasted.

The I-10

I didn't think it was possible to miss a highway exit three times, but today I was proved wrong! Our new friend, Logan, who is like a character taken out of an American Pie movie, drove us to UCLA and USC for dance marathons! From the transition to UCLA to USC, we had to exit onto the I-10 East. We were on the 405 South and missed it. Okay, pretty standard. We went on the 405 North and missed it. Ok, understandable. We went back on the 405 South and missed it. O.K. This guy is seriously HORRIBLE at directions. I really didn't think it was possible to miss it a third time. Finally, on the 405 North... we made it. By the way... while trying to get find the entrance to 405 North the second time... he took the sign "405 North arrow right here" literally and turned right where the sign was into a parking lot/alleyway. FUNNIEST SHIT EVER. Couldn't stop laughing, crying, and kicking the front seat where Jun was sitting. That experience made the whole day trip completely worth it and I would do it all over again just to see Logan miss the exit one more time. INTERESTING DAY! I also saw a couple celebrities at the dance marathon at UCLA :). That was cool, too. Meredith from The Office, Stacey Keibler from Dancing With the Stars and WWE, and Jonathan Bennett from Mean Girls and Van Wilder. Jonathan Bennett said I rocked :) WHOOP! Interesting day.

Ahhhhhhh!

This weekend,
This weekend,
This weekend,
This weekend,
This weekend.

Collateral Damage

Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserved
No better and no worse
I just got lost
Every river that I tried to cross
Every door I ever tried was locked



Wouldn't have made it out alive without you guys.

Day 9

I wish I could go back to:

- faking sick to my mom on block days and then saying i feel better and going back to school to pick up joyce for 5th period to go on our adventures

- that 40 minute drive to santa cruz with my old CDs

- September 20th, 2005

- super high and driving to mcdonalds for chicken nuggets and orange soda

- actually enjoying fetching tennis balls for my sister and dad while they played

- the back of safeway

- shopping with my mom and sister in the mall when it's raining outside when i was 8

- rainy day at the top level of the parking lot at the mall. i just seem to have a lot of good rainy day memories at the mall.

- thinking smirnoff twist-offs made me drunk before high school dances

- buying corsages

- ditching track practice with chichi, shortie, michelle, dury and david

- cashier/register at heritage and rejecting guys with jusann while mark laughed his ass off and told everyone that was working

- swearing every five seconds at jonathan while mario karting at caspar's house

- when i didn't need something immediately when i wake up in the morning

- watching disney movies in front of the fireplace in november

- waking my sister up at 9AM to trade sailor moon cards with me

- making memories at longfellow

- drinking a shot of the nastiest cough medicine every four hours in that room with green walls and watching the office

- driving to school at 7AM and not being able to see the headlights in front of me because of the fog

- my favorite dish made by my mom, tomato &eggs with rice

- eating crepes with nat at valleyfair and talking about everything and anything in 7th grade

- being easily satisfied with a bottle of warm milk, a book, and my pillow

- when i first saw jason

- testing each other on day 9

Oh, so soon.

If you give it long enough, any sorrow will turn into anger.

38% Battery Left

Peace in Lyrical Prose

And anywhere I go
There's always something to remind me
Of another place and time
Where love that traveled far had found me

Ahh.